Hello...

I have been thinking about R and J a lot.. And here are my thoughts..

First, if R left me for some old crush, how would I feel? Does he deserve that kind of hurt from me? Definitely no, and I wouldn't put him through that.

Second, am I even sure in my heart that I love J? No, I ain't. I am probably just having a hormonal imbalance, if I may call it that. ;) I shouldn't cause so much hurt to others just for the sake of a sudden skipping of a heartbeat or rushing of blood when I spot J...

So here is the deal... I am not going to leave Ror even contemplate it any further.. In stead, to cure me out of my "hormonal imbalance", I have decided upon the following steps.

a) To stay away from J, atleast till I trust myself again with him. No chat, no phone, no mail, no driving near his home, no nothing.

b) To stay closer to R, even though he is a long way away.. By chat, mail, phone and maybe even a trip to his new workplace as soon as I get enough time and money..

c) To read lesser fairy tale romantic stories, and maybe read some books or articles on staying close to your lover - and not straying.

d) Save this blog and go call R rightaway!!

Hugs,
Dyuti.